Journal entry for the night of the third day. I have been watching television a great deal today. I had some tea, taken a downer and sat in front of the boob tube. I need to find something to do at night. Maybe I need to get into a relationship and use that time building a meaningful relationship… not at this point in time, it seems everyone is looking for a relationship or getting married and he or she is not excited about it. I see couples together and use to feel alone, but now even that feeling is passing. I don’t think that I can be held down at this point and time, I must go. Although I never really go anywhere, much of my time is spent at work. I am hopefully going to be traveling more these coming months. I may have the chance to cross the Gulf of Mexico again but the threat of a hurricane this year is growing and it can rise up quickly. Also, I hope to be going back to Los Angeles and Seattle. Traveling also helps to broaden one’s mind and enlighten one’s soul. I hope my spiritual growth is in the right direction and I hope I can stay on this path, wherever it may lead.