This is the week of finals, my first year at a major university. I don’t feel like doing any of the needed work, especially the programming that is due tomorrow. My roommate, Ja, and I went to Perk and ate dinner with my old professor and some more friends from junior college. After we went…
Since my last writing my car has broken down on the way back from Thanksgiving holidays at my aunt’s house. The whole family was there, my mother, sisters, stepfather, grandmother and grandfather, so on and so on. It was all right but not one of my best times and if I had not gone, my…
FEAR 11-27-91 Past midnight and father time continues to tick, a never-ending process that will last forever. Where have the hopes and dreams of man gone? Why must we hide our subconscious feelings for it is what makes us who we really are and not the superficial puppet the world would have us to be?…
CHILDERN OF SHELFISHNESS IGNORANCE BLISS In the Beginning The programming started from childbirth just as soon as my Father had created me. My mother, father, grandparents, and other relatives and friends brought gifts of toy cars, toy soldiers, gadgets, and dumahikies. I was brought up poor from the start. My father was a con artist…
For once I was blind but now, I see So here we are and now you know… I did not come here to bring you freedom. You have given it away, so you must be the ones to reclaim such desire. She is standing at the door waiting for you to open it. This is…
I have left Turkey and now i am en route to the land of my physical birth into this world. Upon my return i still have not once cent of money available to me and for this at this moment in my growth, I am grateful. What good will any worry do for me? GOD…
Realizing that if i had never read the book on the antichrist, i would have walked to Jerusalem and become him. Praise be to GOD for the sight he has given me. Contemplation becomes realization in the knowledge that having been willing to sacrifice all for that of my Father, a willing and able servant…
As i sit below the setting sun, i watch the kuslar fly in the sky and think upon them and the animal kingdom. To be born, to grow, to mate, to give birth, to die, and all the while in between feed upon another life to maintain its own. But worries not, lay not up…
As i have chosen to remain in this world, i know it may take part in the suffering, in the destruction. What i must try to do is to partake in it as minimally as possible. I must for the present try to find a balance for myself in the world and living the life…