talks

1024_Talks

Another day, tick tock. Sevgilim is still away. When we talk, all I say is “why am I here, there is no reason for me to be here” I tell her to come home while she talks about her frustration. Still another day has come and gone. But this only matters because of the standard

had

1023_Had

I don’t want to get into writing like follows: I partook of the last bit of tea I had. I worked late yesterday so today I tasked some tickets and kicked off a big job that we will review on Monday. So today, I went for a ride, while still checking emails. There was much

temptation

1022_Temptation

I started early but it was also late. I am beginning to be in a state of worry. Now we see about all this talk of worthiness and willfulness. It is not even about being among temptation and abstaining, it is about there being no temptation. Is there truly a struggle going on here? Now

2226

1021_2226

Here begins the first two of another cycle. Here begins the first lesson. Here begins the vision of 2226 as described previously in the diary. 2 cycles have been completed and starting on the third. Lessons for Sevgilim and myself and our passing of them. Starting tomorrow, I detox. Today I rode to Pacific Beach

thoughts

1020_Thoughts

It is though all that was within me and needed to come out, has been outed. To put fingers to keyboard to produce output is an exertion. While just before it came freely. We land in Beijing in a little over a month. From there we make our way south to Hong Kong. It has

kind

1019_Kind

I have been ingesting much tea lately. I say that things would not be as they are though without it. Living a day that has music playing, which makes me think of my biological farther (pleasant), To living that southern California kind of way. https://sites.google.com/site/archetypealgorithm/ https://archetypealgorithm.earth/

needs

1018_Needs

Saturday was simply that day. The relations of that day to the day are still being seen. As I have just looked in the mirror, seeing my forehead blistered and burnt because of the heat. Only to have identified with the one who walked on to await Sevgilim, who will soon be arriving. To now

similarities

1017_Similarities

The gap that must be bridged is the gap that exists between GOD and an exception handler. It is only when something matters to self that we are stimulated to take notice. We throw an exception and that exception gets handled. We get back a result, see similarities with parts of the response. We see

years

1016_Years

Just as the day, that had already been seen, arrived in Stockholm of self-separation and identifying with the slayer of the one who chose solitude, today it has arrived as the one of the solar sphere. Where identification was made with the one who walked in the direction of servitude. The burning and scaring on

sport

1015_Sport

For some reason at present, we think this idea of living in space is beyond us. We were designed to live among the land but then we crossed the seas. We were not designed to be off the ground but we are already traveling through the sky. It is a logical step is it not.