feeling

384_Feeling

The rain has started and little sleep will be had tonight, less that the two previous. I am now thinking it best to call Sevgilim before leaving Istanbul because i have a feeling that she maybe on holiday. GOD’s will be done, whatever happens i will use to serve him. https://sites.google.com/site/archetypealgorithm/ https://archetypealgorithm.earth/

dreams

383_Dreams

My dreams have returned now that it has been two days without tea. As i toss and turn i remember only small bits. I will work on keeping them on my mind’s eye before moving to the side that is not numb from my bed of two and a half pullman seats. I have had

haste

382_Haste

In my attempt to shorten my journey back to Sevgilim, i was unsuccessful. So now instead of taking the ferry from Rodos to Marmaris, I will continue to Athens and take the land route to Istanbul. For in my attempt to hurry, i would have spent much more money. As they say, haste makes waste.

now

373_Now

Now Hyme wants more money for staying here and so i told Mowad i would tell him that i will be leaving in two or so days. Mowad said, “stay with me, I have no money.” and he has yet to do anything. After saying that he pulled out twenty-five shekels for me to walk

consider

371_Consider

I let Mowad sleep out on the couch last night. He was to go home to see his wife and kids, maybe stay a couple of nights. He came back very late as i knew he would. At first i grabbed the sheets and pillow and went to the couch, then when he went out

why

370_Why

The being here is coming to a close. I know that i could learn much more but i need to return to the states and apply my learning. New life always teaches new lessons. Everything on this earth deteriorates. Nothing in worldly life lasts. Why would a God create things that are not eternal, as

surrender

369_Surrender

I was hard on Mowad but he has decided to go back to his family. He says he will surrender. ‘I tell you to resist not evil.’ I pray to GOD that his children benefit from his new found spirituality that manifests itself as the Love of GOD. https://sites.google.com/site/archetypealgorithm/ https://archetypealgorithm.earth/

accept

368_Accept

I was honest with Mowad about the eight thousand dollars and this morning he again asked me for more, knowing i have no more to give. I told him he was evil and thought only of self and he cares more about himself than he does a single woman raising his children on her own.

months

367_Months

I just calculated my lunar days and it gave me the same month i am existing at present under the so-called time i used to know. At present i have been alive for one year and four months and it is right because that is the current month. Now i will go by it alone.

worship

366_Worship

The God of the land i am currently in is a GOD that only takes. For that is the God that these people worship. There will be no peace so long as the people are worshiping their current God which is Baal, that is self and to put self-first is to develop ways to put