obsolete

423_Obsolete

After shaving my beard, there had developed an area of psoriasis on my left cheek. It has come to my understanding that this skin affliction is due to the physical evolution process. Our bodies are rejecting the hair that we no longer use as protection from the sun. We now use cloths and chemicals so

chooses

422_Chooses

Sevgilim and i also went to the barber today. I told her that since i had made my decision of being with her that i could now cut my beard but told her and the barber it was imperative that the locks of my hair not be touched. She decided upon a goatee, which i

acts

421_Acts

I once again angered Sevgilim today with my not trusting her and wondering where she was. My mind kept racing that she was up to no good. She called saying she had to get her shoes and one more thing, then she would be home. Five hours later she arrived and i immediately questioned her.

ignorance

420_Ignorance

It is interesting that so many run after the Buddha in his teachings and stick to a dogma, when the Buddha taught that all must find their own path. Yet it must not be stayed with but transcended, as all religions of the world. For the Buddha is not about spirituality but only of the

individually

419_Individually

Saturday in the park but it was not the fourth of July. How does tradition differ from culture? How is society, if it is, different than these two together? Society = Culture + Traditions? Culture = Traditions +? or Culture = Programming Yet society, culture, traditions, perceptions of civilizations [which is not at current] must

others

418_Others

The past three days i have been eating more because of my laziness of sitting in the apartment. I hope soon it will warm up and i can spend my days in the park, away from food and watch people and not my appetite. I will try to eat a meal once a day and

absorbed

417_Absorbed

How much money, nationalities, blah, blah, blah, blah. For almost this whole week, i have done nothing but let my thought energy be absorbed by the TV. Watching movies. I have not studied turkish while waiting on the class to start, i have not been learning the flute, nor doing my yoga, nor walking as

hearts

416_Hearts

After Sevgilim’s performance last night we returned home and had a talk that led to us deciding and me asking her to marry me so that she can get a visa for her travel. We told each other that we were already joined in our hearts and soul, so what more is just a piece

needs

415_Needs

I shall return to the US with nothing but riches, not of the world but of my Father. If i am to be with Sevgilim, I will need to find a job and a place to live for us. If not, i have no such needs. All is much better. My trust in Sevgilim is

feeling

414_Feeling

Today i bought my ticket to Istanbul and tonight i leave. I am going to buy a ticket back to the United States and i am not really looking forward to it. I do not know what my return will be like but i am feeling a bit nervous about it. Last night i dreamt