players

410_Players

So, i have come with Sevgilim to rehearsal today. After a goodnight after she returned yesterday. We are still not using protection like we should so there is the possibility of having a child. I am at the point where i am more and more less concerned about it every new day. She says she

expenses

409_Expenses

My greatest task is to remove all thought from my mind that she will not be the person i hope and she says, but i must love her fully without building up the mental walls that i left in Akko. Soon, hopefully this cold weather will leave and i will be comfortable enough to start

sights

408_Sights

Sevgilim and I have recovered from our misunderstanding. What was the misunderstanding? nothing but my selfishness. After returning from Israel and the first mention of borrowing money, it put a bad taste in my mouth and I spit it right back out. Love gives, love does not need, it just is. It must be given

misunderstanding

407_Misunderstanding

Sevgilim and i had the most misunderstanding as of yet, last night. We had gone over to Ci’s and meet Brook. Ko was there also. During the night she said she and Ko had to go to the studio and were saying goodbye for the night. She was leaving me at Ci’s and she left.

want

406_Want

I asked Sevgilim about the seven things and she did not even wish to take that much. Most important to her was the stereo, she asked what i would want and i said the buddha. https://sites.google.com/site/archetypealgorithm/ https://archetypealgorithm.earth/

concern

405_Concern

Will Sevgilim and i be together always? I know not nor will i continue to waste thought and energy with it as a concern. We have three months for me to learn before i must leave again and then in the states i will know more of my path and she may remain with me

remain

404_Remain

With my life going in the current direction my delusions of grandeur are subsiding and i am getting to the point of living the life of current existence and not racing to leave my brothers and sisters behind but to remain with them and help with the harvest. https://sites.google.com/site/archetypealgorithm/ https://archetypealgorithm.earth/

things

403_Things

Sevgilim and i are still having sex without protection and the days of some safety have passed. Today i will buy preservatives and next month she will begin taking birth control. If you cannot not have sex then you must marry and if she gets pregnant. Although neither of us wish to bring children into

meaningless

402_Meaningless

I need first to talk with Sevgilim about her world of acting and theater. A world of favors for good career parts. Best question to ease her hurt: “If you had a casting call for a type of movie you had waited to be in all your life with people you thought were the best

things

401_Things

What makes me unsure about Sevgilim? It is all the things in her life, in her house. When she returns, I will ask what seven things she would like to keep if all but seven things had to go. I will also try to start her healing, starting with her diet in daily life. A