glorified

440_Glorified

I have left Turkey and now i am en route to the land of my physical birth into this world. Upon my return i still have not once cent of money available to me and for this at this moment in my growth, I am grateful. What good will any worry do for me? GOD

antichrist

439_Antichrist

Realizing that if i had never read the book on the antichrist, i would have walked to Jerusalem and become him. Praise be to GOD for the sight he has given me. Contemplation becomes realization in the knowledge that having been willing to sacrifice all for that of my Father, a willing and able servant

looketh

438_Looketh

As i sit below the setting sun, i watch the kuslar fly in the sky and think upon them and the animal kingdom. To be born, to grow, to mate, to give birth, to die, and all the while in between feed upon another life to maintain its own. But worries not, lay not up

remain

437_Remain

As i have chosen to remain in this world, i know it may take part in the suffering, in the destruction. What i must try to do is to partake in it as minimally as possible. I must for the present try to find a balance for myself in the world and living the life

new

436_New

A new life has begun, another new start, another new mind. “Continually renewed in Spirit”. All still upon the same way; the way of love. Again, i cannot find one example how my Father has not blessed this life, from the birth of this body, to the sustaining spirit. For once you can see, having

simple

435_Simple

Yesterday, Sevgilim and i were legally married in a very simple way. We both said evet and signed our names. Ze, Fa and Ne were the witnesses. Then Sevgilim went to work, i went to the apartment and worked a bit on my Turkish. After she came home, we went out to her favorite restaurant.

together

434_Together

I think upon the vision of my family, how there were three of us together. Sevgilim in her beauty as a developed woman, the girl in her young beauty of learning life and i beside them, not as a man but as a floating fluctuating un-dispersing red mass of energy. Thank you, Father, for you

visions

433_Visons

Ever unsure, since its creation, of my vision dealing with the red feather, no large gluttonous stomach (mide), strong lung, smiling, individual standing among orange feathered, gluttonous bellied, collapsed lung, irritated masses; always thinking of some way to apply it to my life, my path. Then the buddha, Hulga saw in my tea reading, thinking

cities

432_Cities

Since Sevgilim has been gone, my life has returned to that of the lifestyle that begins animation with the sun and stops with its setting. I am eating little to nothing and my visions have returned giving me direction. My question of returning to Spacelabs has been answered with a “NO”. As for my question

right

431_Right

My Father still has much to teach me through his omniscient wisdom in that of giving of self. For even after my time in Adrasan, this morning, i found the last bit of selfishness that my soul had been holding on to. I was giving Sevgilim truth a few nights ago about debt and her