11-26-96

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Four more days until I leave for L.A. I am looking forward to the trip. Harem3 will be staying in my place while I am gone, taking care of Bachuas and the condo for me. I have done well in keeping away from her this time and L.A. should make it easier. I doubt will

11-16-96

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I broke it off with Harem3 last night for good. This morning I am already thinking of taking her back into my life. It would not be the right choice though. She has to find out what she needs on her own because I can help her no more and it is affecting me now.

11-06-96

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I think that the switch in my head, that makes my feelings change, has been tweaked. It usually happens all at once and I hope it is the switch because I am tired of dealing with the situation. The weird thing is that it has happened after seven months again. Seven months maybe the limit

11-05-96

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Harem3 is pregnant and we are planning on getting an abortion Saturday and then things will…I don’t know how things will be! I am going to tell her how I would like things to go tonight and see what she thinks about all of it. If she insists on the abortion then I will stand

11-03-96

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I talked again with Harem3, I went by and woke her up yesterday at about 2:00 PM. We went and ate lunch then she called last night when she got off. We went to a friend of hers she works with then to a bar where we had a drink and she told me that

11-02-96

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I did not last the whole week. I called her Wednesday and we went out and were together that night. I think that she is pregnant but I do not know if it would be mine. I still do not know what to do about her; I still want her more than anything but she

10-27-96

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It has been a week since Harem3 and I have talked. We saw each other last night and spoke about nothing important. Work has been hell, which is good and school will fill up the gaps this week. I need to lay off the tea and cleanse my body. Nothing has changed to this point

10-22-96

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Harem3 and I are back from the trip and it went well. We were together for ten days and had a great time. We camped in the Ozarks then drove through Oklahoma, Kansas, into Colorado, and stayed in Burlington. After that we stayed two days in Breckenridge. While in Breckenridge, I hiked to the top

10-02-96

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It is Wednesday; I had my first exam in my CSS415 class that I need/have to pass. I feel better all in all but I still miss Harem3 even though we spend most of our time together. She says we are better off as friends are and she is probably right even though I still

9-16-96

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I am not feeling at all like I was on the previous writing. Let’s see, I have been to Mexico, Isla Meujreas sailing on a boat for ten days. Before I left, I was with Harem3 and had a wonderful time. When I returned from Mexico my life was as good as it could get.