I am in the process of finishing the typing of my second book which precedes my return to the States, which i have a clear vision of my path. I am in the process of letting go of the bondage of appetites and the last is my gluttony of eating. Tonight, i typed up parts,…
It is all now, toward an ending, beginning to coalesce. The beginning of the week was meet with exhaustion and the next day the sickness began to set in. Feeling it come on, at the first opportunity, i inundated myself with citrus and laid down to recharge. Upon waking, the sickness had been subverted, but…
I will not choose the path that i have already declined, i will not chose the path declined by CHRIST. Sevgilim has told me that if i am to be a prophet then she would wish for me to leave her now. Yet what is this urge that drives and pulls me toward orations, leadership…
I have gone and returned from Turkey. Sevgilim has returned with me. It is a far reach now to return to a simplistic environment. The only thing important is the giving of self, not taking offense so that you respond in harshness. I see now that the cleansing has begun, as the polarity in which…
My Spiritual father, I pray for your knowledge and understanding to be in my mind. Your sight to be in these eyes. Your sound to be upon these ears. Your speech and silence to be upon this tongue. Your love to be in this heart. Your presence to be in this form. If it be…
Tonight, is the full moon, forty days since Sevgilim has gone physically from me. I have entered the wilderness; forty days, the time it takes for that which is, to come to fruition. It is now the end times. It has now begun. The time of no more hypocrisy! I have come to be a…
I desire to drink, i desire to smoke, I desire to eat and be gluttonous, i desire sex with Sevgilim, who is now in a distant land. It is not enough to resist these temptations for the law, by resisting, you may not be blamable, but for your character, which is your desire, you are.…
It came to me in a vision, on the day after that which was filled with symbols of my birth time. A mass had gathered to hear from one whose turn it was to recite that which came from the announcement of seemingly random tongue, by selecting from markings from their own back. During the…
The final days until the beginning is drawing to a close. My time of fasting and purification has arrived. Sevgilim and i are departed from one another for 2 months. Before she left, she told me that i had just learned how to treat her and in her leaving the second storm has arrived. A…