haste

382_Haste

In my attempt to shorten my journey back to Sevgilim, i was unsuccessful. So now instead of taking the ferry from Rodos to Marmaris, I will continue to Athens and take the land route to Istanbul. For in my attempt to hurry, i would have spent much more money. As they say, haste makes waste.

reasons

381_Reasons

I am returning to Sevgilim for two reasons. One, what is she desiring to do after graduation and two carnal desire? For the second, i wish to be safe and take responsibility. I will see if she will use protection or abstain or play with a loaded gun. If we abstain i am unsure how

preoccupy

380_Preoccupy

I am on board the ship now. The crew has said that the boats are now running from Rodos to Marmaris daily so that shall be my path instead of taking the long way to Ankara. This should take a day off my travel and bypass the main land of Greece. Many beautiful, or rather

depart

379_Depart

I remember telling Mowad there was a whole nation waiting on me. A whole nation that i still do not care to talk with at present. People from the states arrive, i hear them speak and i excuse myself of course. I have been a traveler and had that thought pattern and have moved on

possibilities

378_Possibilities

In retrospect, hindsight being 15-20, my service was to go to one man in his darkest hour and teach him of GOD and responsibility in all ways of life. For almost two full days i was with him. His blindness was healed for the last few days he had been telling me what he sees/saw.

now

373_Now

Now Hyme wants more money for staying here and so i told Mowad i would tell him that i will be leaving in two or so days. Mowad said, “stay with me, I have no money.” and he has yet to do anything. After saying that he pulled out twenty-five shekels for me to walk

now

372_Now

Mowad’s wife does now have a boyfriend and she, no way wants him back. She is kind enough to let him see his children. Now she will give him the divorce he has wanted and he is mad at her and him for noticing each other and does not know if they have even kissed.

consider

371_Consider

I let Mowad sleep out on the couch last night. He was to go home to see his wife and kids, maybe stay a couple of nights. He came back very late as i knew he would. At first i grabbed the sheets and pillow and went to the couch, then when he went out

accept

368_Accept

I was honest with Mowad about the eight thousand dollars and this morning he again asked me for more, knowing i have no more to give. I told him he was evil and thought only of self and he cares more about himself than he does a single woman raising his children on her own.