things

403_Things

Sevgilim and i are still having sex without protection and the days of some safety have passed. Today i will buy preservatives and next month she will begin taking birth control. If you cannot not have sex then you must marry and if she gets pregnant. Although neither of us wish to bring children into

meaningless

402_Meaningless

I need first to talk with Sevgilim about her world of acting and theater. A world of favors for good career parts. Best question to ease her hurt: “If you had a casting call for a type of movie you had waited to be in all your life with people you thought were the best

things

401_Things

What makes me unsure about Sevgilim? It is all the things in her life, in her house. When she returns, I will ask what seven things she would like to keep if all but seven things had to go. I will also try to start her healing, starting with her diet in daily life. A

baptism

400_Baptism

Of course, it is a coincidence that i will be returning to my Israel, which is the United States at around the age of thirty which is when Jesus-Christ began his ministry (what means teachings) and i go to the US to begin mine. His stand took him to Jerusalem which would be to me

waste

399_Waste

So, our justice system is a waste to our time and a waste of anything close to a perception of justice. It is nothing more than the witch hunt that the previous worldly authorities reveled in. Continuance, but now it is not the same for since it started, it has grown more tenacious and doing

warmest

397_Warmest

Sports, physical activities that make the adrenalin rush come. Our society runs after thinking that by doing acts of jumping out of planes, off cliffs, climbing mountains, diving into subterranean waters filled with trenches, going fast in machines or in a slow boat in dangerous seas, that this is strength, this is courage. We are

how

396_How

How has God not blessed me? My dreams are becoming a reality. I see the way i want the world to be and it is. So, with my act of will becoming manifest into this world, it is utmost and imperative that i come to know love and be a selfless-servant to my eternal unbegotten

thoughts

395_Thoughts

Last night Sevgilim came home late from rehearsal and when she got to bed i of course was awake to talk with her. We started sharing affection and the strength that i asked my Father for was given to me. I had prayed he strengthen me in the spirit in any a form he knew

start

394_Start

Death and the waste of energy associated with the remains of a carcass, a lifeless piece of flesh. Let the dead bury the dead. Dig a hole, throw it in the forest or sink it in the ocean. Do not encase it in a titanium coffin designed to hold the bones of a corpse for

states

393_States

Sevgilim was hurt when i asked about Ahmed but she soon forgave me after I explained why. This culture is much more affectionate between friends. It shows another view of how, in the states, people do not know how to show love and caring. If a person from the states would show the same closeness