5-28-92

448_5-28-92

Why do they say that we go from one extreme to another? It must be a thing within the norm. There is nothing more tragic in this life as the loss of a love or not having love returned. There is no true meaning that I can find in this life, we are put here

5-19-92

447_5-19-92

This week she, Harem1, left with her husband on a trip to Disney Land. She did not say good-bye but did insinuate it a week before. My life will never be complete without her, and yet in the same instance I am scared to be with her because of the fear that I may not

12-08-91

446_12-08-91

This is the week of finals, my first year at a major university. I don’t feel like doing any of the needed work, especially the programming that is due tomorrow. My roommate, Ja, and I went to Perk and ate dinner with my old professor and some more friends from junior college. After we went

12-2-1991

445_12-2-1991

Since my last writing my car has broken down on the way back from Thanksgiving holidays at my aunt’s house. The whole family was there, my mother, sisters, stepfather, grandmother and grandfather, so on and so on. It was all right but not one of my best times and if I had not gone, my

love

444_Take

FEAR 11-27-91 Past midnight and father time continues to tick, a never-ending process that will last forever. Where have the hopes and dreams of man gone? Why must we hide our subconscious feelings for it is what makes us who we really are and not the superficial puppet the world would have us to be?

destiny

443_Destiny

CHILDERN OF SHELFISHNESS IGNORANCE BLISS In the Beginning The programming started from childbirth just as soon as my Father had created me. My mother, father, grandparents, and other relatives and friends brought gifts of toy cars, toy soldiers, gadgets, and dumahikies. I was brought up poor from the start. My father was a con artist

mountains

442_Mountains

For once I was blind but now, I see So here we are and now you know… I did not come here to bring you freedom. You have given it away, so you must be the ones to reclaim such desire. She is standing at the door waiting for you to open it. This is

love

441_Love

Inconceivable, ineffable, incomprehensible, omniscient, eternal, unbegotten, forgiving, merciful, kind, blessfull, giving, patient, life, truth, just, omnipotent, omnipresent, non-jealous, non-conceited, non-proud, non-selfish, non-irritable, self-sustaining, non-condemning, non-biased, unconditional, caring, helpful, knowledge, unneeded, compassionate, non-controlling, love. https://sites.google.com/site/archetypealgorithm/ https://archetypealgorithm.earth/

glorified

440_Glorified

I have left Turkey and now i am en route to the land of my physical birth into this world. Upon my return i still have not once cent of money available to me and for this at this moment in my growth, I am grateful. What good will any worry do for me? GOD

antichrist

439_Antichrist

Realizing that if i had never read the book on the antichrist, i would have walked to Jerusalem and become him. Praise be to GOD for the sight he has given me. Contemplation becomes realization in the knowledge that having been willing to sacrifice all for that of my Father, a willing and able servant