2-18-95

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I went through the Harem3 old thing about asking Harem2 to marry me again. I was going to do it until I called her from the hotel. I had a strange dream the night before that she had been raped and killed; all I could do was just cry in my dream. It is eleven-forty

2-14-95

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Today is Valentine’s Day and I have been in California for three days. Sunday, I had a few drinks in the hotel bar when I arrived and got situated. Monday, I went to the HP seminar and meet a couple of guys that will be partaking in the training with me. Today I drove into

2-8-95

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Harem10 came over today; it is the first time I have seen her in eight months. She has put on a little weight but still looks good. We went to Ruby Tuesdays for lunch and then by the hospital to pick up my check for my trip to California. After that we went back to

1-9-95

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So, what has happened since my last entry? I spent New Year’s with Peter, Job, Carol, and Diana. Peter did not drink and was the designated driver since he was feeling ill that night. The night was slow and I passed out in Peter’s jeep in the cold so that I would not get sick.

11-29-94

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So, I ask myself, “Is time passing quick enough for me?” My reply, “Yes, it is.” I received that one letter from Harem2 and that has been it. One reply to about ten letters, maybe I will receive a call from her in the near future. She has most likely found someone out there in

10-11-94

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Words Ringing True Tonight, I write about Peter, the best friend that I have ever had. I do not mean this lightly or in play, I can connect with him better than I can anyone. Peter though is a genius on every subject in the whole world except computers and other technical extremities. The fault

10-10-94

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Today seems like the first day of fall. The sky is cloudy, with no blue, just shades of gray. When awaking in the morning, the air is chilly with low humidity and it does not get hot at all in the afternoon. Bachuas is barking at something in the back of the house. He finally

8-8-92

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I write this to you Harem1, but for no one’s sake but mine. I will apologize for nothing that I have done except not being able to love you freely and you I. I do love you and will have you in my mind at the last second of my death. Just make sure that

6-9-92

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Not much is happening today, I went to work and then went to see the movie Patriot Games. What is this existence that it seems our lives are in need of more action that we go see movies to fill our boring lives? I waited for Harem1 to call again; I suppose she has left

6-8-92

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Today I went canoeing again and stopped at a swing on the river in what looked like a relativity shallow area. As always, I am crazy/stupid enough and am the first to find out. I jumped on the swing and ended up busting my ass-ets, it seems I get a bit crazier each passing week