03-14-99

532_03-14-99

I was craving today so I scraped the bowls and got what residue that I could. It was all to no avail. This addiction will be hard to beat but it will be done as I stay on this path. I am at the point now to where I am worried that my Grandparents will

03-08-99

531_03-08-99

Today I stayed home from work. So instead of working from home, I read the bible, walked my dog, waited for my doctor appointment to roll around this afternoon and had some tea. I will work tonight on the interface specifications. Within this century the eagle and the bear will clash or they will not,

03-07-99

530_03-07-99

Another first full day of not partaking in tea. I do crave it but it has served its purpose. I spent this weekend with Harem4 and next weekend I will talk to my Grandparents about coming to live with them and placing a new slant on life. It will be interesting to see how things

03-06-99

529_03-06-99

Today is my last day for tea. It has served its purpose just as the stump did in my childhood that I use to play on. Such thoughts run through my head. I do not understand how one day the Lord is teaching others and me he seems not to hear my plea for a

02-28-99

527_02-28-99

Today I arose and went to see my Grandparents with Bach, then I came home and we went walking on the beach. We got separated on the beach and he meet me back at the condo to where Peter was also waiting for me. Peter needed a lift home because Delilah’s vehicle had broken down.

02-24-99

525_02-24-99

Today was my first day back at work. I had been off for two days because of something I awoke with on Saturday. Lately, twice, I have had pains in my right testicle. When I felt of it, it was fine but then on Saturday morning it had a lump on it. I am not

02-20-99

524_02-20-99

Whales; creatures that have complex communication. The Essenes, they have their own language. We slaughtered these enormous intelligent gentle creatures for the sheer greed of it. What else do we expect when we look at ourselves? Killing our brothers, sisters, mothers and fathers because their skin, eyes, culture or language are different. I need to

02-19-99

523_02-19-99

Ahab was searching for vengeance, vengeance for being placed here in this world and being afflicted by its entanglements. He was also afraid that he would have to give up those things he did not want. He was searching for the thing that afflicted him, trying to stop the creation process and in the end