start

394_Start

Death and the waste of energy associated with the remains of a carcass, a lifeless piece of flesh. Let the dead bury the dead. Dig a hole, throw it in the forest or sink it in the ocean. Do not encase it in a titanium coffin designed to hold the bones of a corpse for

states

393_States

Sevgilim was hurt when i asked about Ahmed but she soon forgave me after I explained why. This culture is much more affectionate between friends. It shows another view of how, in the states, people do not know how to show love and caring. If a person from the states would show the same closeness

sights

392_Sights

I did not sleep much at all last night although i was comfortable. I did dream much about here, being Ankara and Sevgilim, Me, Ci and Ko. They too are unsure of GOD’s love and therefore his presence. But first and foremost, Sevgilim and i must talk if we are to do what we are

service

391_Service

People’s lives are/You must not let your life be preoccupied with perceived problems. It is as though they cannot think straight and as i know they do not. They live in an instinctual mind and have left undeveloped the spirituality and intuitional greater sections of the brain, that when used, begins to exercise and grow

between

390_Between

Sevgilim, while today she showed me pictures and in them, she is draped all over some fellow. In them were also pictures of us. One of which she carriers in her wallet. I did not know what to think. Just as when Mowad asked me what i thought about him. My answer was that i

many

389_Many

I found a rock of tea and put it in my collar bag while in Israel, living with Mowad in Hyme’s house on the second floor in that new city of Akko. I remembered it while sitting here and so i partook of the last bit of tea i was caring. I have already changed

blames

388_Blames

I have returned back to Sevgilim in Ankara on the night of the Full Moon(1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,another,another). Several days of travel and little sleep, i arrived to her, M, and C. I will now start asking questions to her, about love, life, direction. I will not stay around just to enjoy her but if it is not

blessing

387_Blessing

How has my GOD not blessed me? In no way i can see that he has not. I am on the bus bound again for Istanbul, just a bit left over from giving to Mowad and it will get me to Istanbul and my Father is blessing me with his angels. Upon arriving in Piraeus

permanent

386_Permanent

This ferry ride is taking a good length of time. It is helping me develop my patience even more which needs to happen. For i have a day and a half bus ride next. Now i am also getting tired of travel and soon it shall most likely be over. For two years i have

return

385_Return

Not much sleep last night. I awoke from a deep sleep that made me feel like i at least had a good sleep. Upon waking this morning my thoughts were of my mother and wanting to embrace her. True riches; not the money she clings to but her three children. I see that she is