needs

415_Needs

I shall return to the US with nothing but riches, not of the world but of my Father. If i am to be with Sevgilim, I will need to find a job and a place to live for us. If not, i have no such needs. All is much better. My trust in Sevgilim is

feeling

414_Feeling

Today i bought my ticket to Istanbul and tonight i leave. I am going to buy a ticket back to the United States and i am not really looking forward to it. I do not know what my return will be like but i am feeling a bit nervous about it. Last night i dreamt

full moon

413_Full_Moon

(Full Moon 2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9,10) Money is not evil; it is the wanting of it, and the giving of it as an offering of help that is evil. It is an unknown GOD that i have to bring to the people of now days. Who has known of this GOD of the savior-christ? The savior-christ, his disciples,

souls

412_Souls

Two days of Sevgilim and i being put off with each other. This morning was better and she went to school hasta. I did a bit more resting, then did a small review of Turkish, got a bit of sun, and then thought about Love, and wrote Sevgilim a poem. My Father is making this

now

411_Now

Every day is getting better still. I should say everything is getting better for me. Last night Sevgilim went out for an interview and came back at two in the morning, only after i called. My mind, of course raced with acts of indecency and all the thoughts i had of such were of course

players

410_Players

So, i have come with Sevgilim to rehearsal today. After a goodnight after she returned yesterday. We are still not using protection like we should so there is the possibility of having a child. I am at the point where i am more and more less concerned about it every new day. She says she

expenses

409_Expenses

My greatest task is to remove all thought from my mind that she will not be the person i hope and she says, but i must love her fully without building up the mental walls that i left in Akko. Soon, hopefully this cold weather will leave and i will be comfortable enough to start

sights

408_Sights

Sevgilim and I have recovered from our misunderstanding. What was the misunderstanding? nothing but my selfishness. After returning from Israel and the first mention of borrowing money, it put a bad taste in my mouth and I spit it right back out. Love gives, love does not need, it just is. It must be given

misunderstanding

407_Misunderstanding

Sevgilim and i had the most misunderstanding as of yet, last night. We had gone over to Ci’s and meet Brook. Ko was there also. During the night she said she and Ko had to go to the studio and were saying goodbye for the night. She was leaving me at Ci’s and she left.

want

406_Want

I asked Sevgilim about the seven things and she did not even wish to take that much. Most important to her was the stereo, she asked what i would want and i said the buddha. https://sites.google.com/site/archetypealgorithm/ https://archetypealgorithm.earth/