07-22-98

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I have been in L. A. since Sunday night and have been looking forward to the trip for a while. I came out here with Chuck for the advanced server configuration using the super GUI an MHGIE. We went to Old Town Pasadena last night and then went out and had a few drinks, shot

07-18-98

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Women change your whole outlook on life. I have been talking with Harem5 on the phone for hours. I cannot remember her face but I am learning more as the number of call increases. In the past few days, my idea of residence in Ecuador has become more picturesque but I have become more resolved

07-12-98

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Where to start? As I sit here now my mind has become mad. I need more light, now that is better. It may be better the other way because my shadow is now in the way. Book, wedding, computer, and the wine; these are just a few of the happenings this weekend. I cannot differentiate

06-28-98

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At this point in time, I do not know whether or not my life is leading the book or the book is leading my life. I have quit watching TV and only rent movies on Friday night. I am able to save money now and can live off what I was making when I started

the experiment begins

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The Experiment Begins Beginning of Summer Solstice My God what a wonderful life but I am unsure if I am supposed to enjoy it. To see God in everything and to feel him all around as though I am standing being surrounded by his breath. I have taken some time off work as of late.

05-31-98

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Shavuot begins. My eyes have been opened to the iniquity of man. I see it yet its description contains words that I do not know. So many sins commit this act for its birth was of the tree. Today I spent with my family in Lucedale. It was my grandfather and T’s birthday. My journal

05-15-98

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I returned home today at about nine this evening from San Antonio. I got off the plane waited for my bags and upon heading out to pick up my vehicle, which by the way cost twenty dollars; the exact amount I had left from the trip, I saw a gorgeous female. She looked Asian American

05-12-98

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Thoughts of women fill my mind and my desires. The feeling is becoming stronger and stronger as I sit here in San Antonio listening to Sara MacLachlan. I could care less about the direction of healthcare and the direction that the hospital can/should take. I drink because I am bored and I think that I

03-29-98

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I finished Ezekiel this morning, something I wanted to do in a timely manner. My next reading from the bible will be the life of Jesus Christ. When I was walking Bachuas today, Harem10 was outside holding a baby. As I passed, she said, “Oh how sweet, I am twenty-three and not even dating anyone”

03-15-98

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I have come to the conclusion that I must keep and spread hope for mankind. It will be our own X {know your faith}. Would it not be a far greater day, that in our Lord’s return, mankind would be a friend; if not brothers. It, to me, is a better path that continuing on