Job asked me the other day if I felt a person would be wasting their life if all they did was to do nothing but read. I replied to him no, but after more thought on the matter, who am I to say. The only way a person’s life can be wasted is if that individual thinks that they have wasted their life.
If I decide, Job has agreed to sale his sailboat to me for a good price. I am still debating on whether to buy it or not. It will take a great deal of money but if i bought a new one it will cost me more. It will also give me something to do this summer instead of sitting around here like I did last summer. So much has been built up for paying off my loan. Like there will be this huge change of life and God will open a path that cannot be miss-sighted.
As I read the bible, the other night I decided to tell Harem4 that we should no longer have sex; for several reasons. One, it is, to me, immoral. Two, we are very different people and unready to get married in case a child is given to us by the process.
The next night she stayed over and my desire got the best of me, for throughout the day my eyes beheld beautiful splendor of women and she being one I, broke down. As Christ says if you must fornicate then get married. If I am to stop my indulgence in wickedness then, as I have found out for myself, I must cast it off and stay away from it. They will be everywhere I go and only with the Lord’s help will I ever be able to be surrounded and still abstain. So instead, the next thing for me to stop is my lying, for I do it too much.
I am going to my Grandparents this weekend. It will be a good overnight visit and then back to work on Monday. Tick tock, tick tock, the loan is almost gone.