Ahab was searching for vengeance, vengeance for being placed here in this world and being afflicted by its entanglements. He was also afraid that he would have to give up those things he did not want. He was searching for the thing that afflicted him, trying to stop the creation process and in the end dying spiritually to console his personal vanity. I look upon this as noble, this act of consuming anger. I do see where I could get caught up in it.
Harem4 and I dropped Job off at the airport yesterday. He was leaving for Peru and the trip is to last for a whole month. I in the act of me driving him to the airport, I saved his life and everyone else life on the plane when I told him that it would not be a good idea to fly with compressed propane tanks in this luggage. I pray his trip gives him what he needs and lets him clear his head.
The ten-year reunion that is happening this year is making me nervous. Although I am going, there are most of my friends on the missing list. I am going to enjoy having a place to myself again although I did enjoy the conversation. Sunday I am taking Harem4 to meet my mother and see Se. I feel he is a lot like me growing up. He has a control freak for a parent and no friends. I am going to get him watercolor paints and give him my wildlife fact file books and then ask him to paint me his favorite card. I do need to spend more time with him.