My Father still has much to teach me through his omniscient wisdom in that of giving of self. For even after my time in Adrasan, this morning, i found the last bit of selfishness that my soul had been holding on to. I was giving Sevgilim truth a few nights ago about debt and her false happiness found in the material world and she did not take it very well. She became defensive although she said that she knew i was right.
What i know now i have found because i allowed it to be given to me by the spirit of GOD. For even as the Savior-Christ, who is to the greatest extent above me, came to give, what i used as my light, people still listened not to him. His way cannot be known by words but only by walking in it. For who have I listened to in my life? Who have i believed in this life that i did not want to know on my own? It was only after giving up all ways of the world i could, did i come to realize how futile it is to exist in such a way. It was nothing less than at deaths door that i noticed the void my soul would go to, not having received the immortality of the spirit. People are not to be pulled into a spiritual life, for it is the reason the Savior-Christ spoke in parables. Not all are to be saved because not all wish to live. As for Sevgilim, i will help her with utmost urgency to fulfill the life she thinks that she wants, all the while living the truth and sharing the truth to those in the country of my birth. For i can be a prophet and a husband.
My ears, eyes, mind, and soul shall stay open to my Father’s will so that when i am called once again i shall serve him with spiritual strength in service. For my Father has given me ability without bounds in this world so that i may bring his love, though me, into it. Not my will but my Father’s will be done.