Today i bought my ticket to Istanbul and tonight i leave. I am going to buy a ticket back to the United States and i am not really looking forward to it. I do not know what my return will be like but i am feeling a bit nervous about it. Last night i dreamt that Sevgilim and I separated. She got in from filming almost at sun rise, then woke up and left straight away for rehearsal and i have too much on my mind to be as loving as i should be. On one hand my Father has groomed me as a prophet, for those i have come from. On the other he has given me a wonderful woman that i could be with and raise an adopted family with. Which way will it go? In truth, i do not know. Not my will but my Father’s.