My body is feeling much better this morning. After my cleaning i will go mail what i can and retain what i will. There is also an unconcern with the money i have given Mowad. Waleed told me last night that he asks for money from many people. But i stated that i will stay for a while longer and watch the course of events. There should be love of family, not money for the latter leads to strife and aggravation. It is, or seems to be, draining talking of spiritual matter and thinking upon matters for days or weeks at a time. The cleaning helps with exercise and i shall find something to do in the late afternoon, my recorder maybe.
Second thought is this, it is not the spiritual matters that feels draining, it is any type of worry that takes life and energy from you. “Worry not about anything for doing so cannot add one second to life.” Tomorrow i shall give again to Mowad, it is always more and more, soon he will owe me the sum of the supposed check he will be getting. I shall do what i can but unlike my Father i do not have forever to give. As i give, he gives me strength that at times i shall not be without and in spirituality he shall give riches that the world wants not, unless it is cheap and they can pay for it, privacy included.