Instead of moving to the other hostel where I would be surrounded by people from the west, I have decided to stay here in a place where I am surrounded by foreign tongues. With that decision I dusted the place down and will go in search of candles today to have more of a pleasant smell for the next few days.
Today for lunch I was offered to eat with the Greeks who work and visit the hostel. The lunch is a Greek food that is eaten once a week for all the vitamins and minerals needed. Today they are making their bets on race horses in the need for something to do and the lure of easy money. But where is the ease if you lose? I suppose it is easier to lose money in betting than gaining.
My thoughts are not as strong in my longing to be with Sevgilim. I am debating on sending her the book on Turkish since i have no one to help me with it and also returning the picture i took from her without asking.
I am still asking myself, when will I have enough faith in my father to start making my way by my own two feet and not to continue to use and rely upon the transportation technology of this world. If it is his will to give me the strength, the time for my next step will be in the land where the christ walked during his childhood and ministry. It seems that would be the place for such a thing to happen for it is in the christ that I have laid my hope in salvation for it is my belief that he, in his life, showed the way to my father.