Now the group has diminished in number and four of us have left the hostel and found a cleaner and more costly place. I have spoken about all that I hold dear and have gotten their viewpoints and now the conversation has become one of small talk to a large degree. I feel that it would be best to have not left the hostel although we now have a kitchen and are saving money on eating meals. I could care less about the money issue. I will use it as long as I have it and when it is gone then my presence in the world will be greatly diminished.