I was told there would be negative consequences and yet i continued anyway. Therefore, i cannot be upset or sad about the event. I must simply work toward putting it to use, learn from it and go forward. I will say that is however the most negative effect that could take place as it led to Sevgilim being upset and her to have a worry that i maybe dishonest. I of course began my defense but not in dialog with her but myself but shortly telling myself to stop thinking about defense or how i would smooth things over with her but simply settled on being quiet, accepting the guilt and to simply never let it happen again. She wants honesty, she will have it. Everything speaks to me no matter how seemingly insignificant.
The coming seemingly harmful events are necessary. For we have stopped evolving and are only consuming of what we, in our past, have created.