I was craving today so I scraped the bowls and got what residue that I could. It was all to no avail. This addiction will be hard to beat but it will be done as I stay on this path.
I am at the point now to where I am worried that my Grandparents will say no about me living with them, then it will be all up in the air again with one less choice. Whichever of God’s paths is taken, it is by his will alone. Peace will come to mind and to no longer worry. To not worry about working every day and having these rulers take half of my wages and use it on things I am personally and spiritually against. I must pay it or suffer the ungracious consequences. If the government was a single individual doing these things to me then it could be changed in a court of law on crimes of extortion. As this was stated long ago, “What is pomp, rule and reign but earth and dust? Though live as they can yet die they must.”
I am still working diligently toward a finish and in this I am not sleeping much but instead meditating and reading of Christ and God. I also went to a new club with Harem4 this weekend and had no fun at all. That has a good chance of being the last out to such a wicked place. I am trying to enjoy life more and to be positive along with giving all credit for goodness to the Lord. I pray these were not such a hard task for me but it is teaching another thing, patience.