At this point in time, I do not know whether or not my life is leading the book or the book is leading my life. I have quit watching TV and only rent movies on Friday night. I am able to save money now and can live off what I was making when I started my job at the hospital. After thinking it over, it would be in my best interest to stay with my present job. I would like to get Bach a yard but I am planning on the two of us getting out more. The summer time keeps him in because of the heat on his black coat.
I still have not asked Bec about the carpet but I hopefully will remember this week. I have bumped up my rent payment to her and when I pay off my vehicle, I will add another twenty-five dollars to the payment. I do hope to start getting out more, I am just nervous about everything. This nervousness must be overcome. Am I afraid to die alone? Am I afraid to die? These questions bring me to the other night when the storm came through. I asked God to show himself and within minutes a storm began to brew with an abundance of lightening. I was on my way out to walk Bach but the lightening was too frequent and too close. So much for my faith in God, when he is near, I hide out in a house made of twigs.
Plans; I hope to take Spanish this coming semester and the next. That should be enough to get me started understanding the language. Wednesday I will get my passport picture taken and the papers from the post office. Then I will be able to accompany Jeff to Peru and attend a wedding down there while looking for some land. This should take place in November.
So much for getting closer to the family, I bailed out on going to Florida this weekend. Why, I don’t really know, it was gorgeous over that way. I turned around after driving halfway there. I suppose Thanksgiving will be the next holiday get together that we have but I am unsure if everyone will not be there. I will have missed out as always, by choice.
Every week I try to look forward to the beginning of the work-week. I have given up project management for the Caremaster system but have already found enough tasks to take up my time I just got free. The next thing to do is to get another Unix analyst and then all I will be doing is management. I would rather train the programmers to take over the system administration. I am going to start working on Saturday and take off Sunday and Monday. The office being quite on Saturday should allow me to get a great deal done.
I am also going to see about a night job cleaning boats at a boat yard marina. I am already working too hard so I should not get another job but in cash and maybe two or three days a week. One thing at a time and first is education.