It is Wednesday; I had my first exam in my CSS415 class that I need/have to pass. I feel better all in all but I still miss Harem3 even though we spend most of our time together. She says we are better off as friends are and she is probably right even though I still want her. My main problem is another person in her life, only because she has been sleeping with him. I suppose I cannot expect her to stay celibate even though I will. In time it will probably be someone else she is sleeping with and not I. I just cannot decide if that is needed or not. I want her and it is not just her physical appearance, it is everything that makes her a whole person. I will never try to sleep with her again unless she instigates the act but I know she never will. I do hope she is careful.
Work is slow this week, so instead of playing, I have started familiarizing myself with the information on the interface engine. I suppose when Harem3 moves to Ocean Springs things with us and our time together will drastically reduce and that will give way to the direction things will go as time progresses. I think that she may be dating many other people if I were not living and keeping in touch with her so much. That would help her heal as well, more experiences. I am still looking forward to Colorado, leaving in ten days, it should be a good trip. hopefully we will have some “A” and good talks always come from that. I am able to articulate myself more when I am in that state. Time will tell all, even if it is not what we wish to hear.