Today i have once again been born again anew. I buried the old, selfish spiritual seeking for ascension, in the water of the Mediterranean Sea and emerged from its watery womb to be born into a life of Love and giving of self. A life where i live, in this world and all its suffering, with my fellow man and it took a woman to bring me to such a point. For four days i have been living among a small community of communists, communicating without the need for many words. They are interested in my way of life and desire my happiness of being content with my thoughts. They also want help in that of the spirit but at present, there is an unfortunate gap for i know not the words in Turkish and they know not the words in English. GOD willing some day they may be granted what it is i have to tell but at current they shall remain atheist, bound by their communist beliefs, knowing nothing of my Father. Yet in all of this, they give more of what they have and themselves than do most of their Islamic, Jewish, Christian, Hindus, Buddhists and other professed gurus of some blind spirituality, so now i ask who knows more of my Father; those who act in giving or those who speak of acting?
I shall travel through the night to return back to Sevgilim and hope to see her at the apartment when I arrive. We shall be married soon on paper for governments knowledge so that she may obtain a way to make her travel easier. First the states then Canada, Mexico, not necessarily in that order. I shall keep my sight upon the will of my Father and continue to give more of self in love, for he has made life beautiful to me even though i know this world has no beauty to give. For he has shown me love. A love that must be shared and shown to others, a love absolute, a love of spiritual purity, a love that can only come from that which is nothing but love and is everything that is love.
Tomorrow will be the full moon, making one day since my return to Turkey, my return to Sevgilim. I hope we can have a wonderful evening together filled with this peace i have now found, filled with this ever growing love my Father has brought me to be born into a new existence that is life illuminated by love. I realize now, i know now that i speak and exist not as the animal body not the deficient soul but i exist and am of the spirit. That which cometh from and is my Father. It is my choice to remain for voluntary service in this world for a benefit of whoever my Father may will.
I am presence.