Today i again went to the bank for Mowad but again and for the third time, i was denied money. He says he sees the cycle of injustice, even only if in the money element. But instead of selling all to get out, he does not want his wife to have any more than what the courts have mandated. He married for an Israel passport and sex and now he is unwilling to take responsibility for the youthful actions. He worries about himself, wanting to be free while he has three children; four. He says he loves them, like all parents, but knowing their current life, he knows how hard it would be to raise them alone, as his wife is doing, and fights not for custody or wishes custody, to get his children from a supposed possessed woman.
Initially i fought against giving him more money but then began to give freely until i was unable to give more. Yet it is all he continues to ask for after telling him that there is no more. When i give him money, much goes for himself to live on, the rest to his wife, if he is honest. Talk of thousands of dollars in land and people owing him money, yet what has he to show? But himself, running after 17000 shekels.
So now i am where i wanted to be. I have no more money to give, all i have to give is myself, now it is time for me to know more fully what that means. My prayers/talks with my Father have also became almost secondary in my mind during this time here in Akko. My Father is teaching me much. We are our saviors alone, each individual. Even Christ cannot save you, unless you chose to accept that which is not an earthly existence, a one time being, but look to it within you, it being the spirit inside you.