Now that i may be free from feeling fired toward a great biblical epic mission in my life, it is no longer a desire or vain pursuit of mine to be anything more than what my Father has in store for me to be. For I shall never change the world and the way it is for i am only an unworthy servant in a vast sea of injustice, i am one white grain of sand on a black sand beach. It is for me to serve my father only and if it is his will to change the world then it shall be done. For although it is impossible for me, all things are possible for him. I will strive to listen to the spirit until i know that i am the spirit and then i will still only be a more faithful servant. It is a selfish pride and desire to want to see a change you make in the world. For it is not you that make it but the eternal un-begotten father.